I set the destination, but this ability drove the way.
I now know, this is something unique and special.
I have used it to get to this beautiful place.
A place where I can make with my own two hands.
Where I can create day in and day out.
But this, this is not always a gift.
For the past week or so, I've shut down the torch at the end of the day empty handed.
I turn off the lights and close the door tight behind me in hopes of forgetting the frustrations of the day.
I submerge myself in family.
In conversation about anything but the studio.
I play games with my son.
Yesterday was the worst.
I left the studio feeling broken.
The lowest of lows.
Working on a project that is so outside my comfort zone brings so much frustration.
So much self doubt.
Searching for answers, I came across something magical.
"My advice to you is to soften into the discomfort. Accept it. Know that it's gifting you growth, fuel, and grit. Whatever it may be that you're claiming this year as your desire and dream, I wish you the comfort within the discomfort. The stillness within the unease. The softening within the stretch. And mostly, I wish you the match that lights and revives the fire to keep you going. Because you can. Keep going."